Day 5

Day 5
27th June 2014

Today was better, we actually seemed to have some normal(ish) conversation today. Although you were asking why I didn't feel right and I didn't want to tell you it's because I'm depressed.

I did still fell like you just didn't want to bother at times too though, especially tonight when you just suddenly stopped responding...then after some poking for an answer, you said you were in bed.....goodnight then.

Tomorrow is the first time I'm going to see you since you left me, but I really don't want to go, you want me to, but I don't want to be there. You don't realise how difficult it's going to be to be just a normal person around you and I hope it isn't made even more awkward by you not wanting to walk round with me, talk to me or hug me.

I'm going to drink a few cups of coffee in the morning and make sure I smell really nice before I see you because I know you like that, or at least you did...I guess my hope is to try and revive those memories of me...you really liked me, infact, you loved me...I guess there is only hope!

I love you so much

Raspberry